Whew the last few days have been a whirlwind!!! Having new puppy is so like having a baby. I have been up every 3 hrs through the night because he is still adjusting to his crate. We have not mastered going "pee" outside...so he likes to go pee anywhere, but we are trying. I don't let him down anywhere in the house because I am NOT a fan of pee or poo in my floor. It makes for a very long and tedious day. I do work full time, so I am going home as soon as I can to get him out of his crate, and we try to let him stay out the rest of the day unless I cannot watch him. He is sneaky and will pee in an instant..lol. He is such a ball of personality trying to figure out the world. Having a new life in our presence is such a gift. I don't forsee me going crazy and thinking he is a human, but we all love him so much already.
My husband has really really surprised me. He has been so anti-dog...NO NO NO was his answer, but you should see him now. ha ha. It is funny to see him loving on something he never wanted. It really hurt when we had to put our pomeranian, Katelyn, down March 1st. Our house had a nice break, but it felt lonely in a sense. Now we have all the dog we can handle. Oh well, It is just nice to have something "happy" for a change. I find joy in the Lord, and his presence is with me always. I thank him for his creatures that he created, and we promise him we will take good care of Max.
I often feel like our kids need to learn how to care for animals, it gives them responsibility....Right now, though...Max is all mine.. 10pm, 2am, 5am, and afternoon crate clean up....LOL.. It is fun and we have busier days ahead. We have tried to socialize him. I took him to Trenton's class yesterday, and they were all so gentle with him. I didn't let any of the kids hold him, but they were petting his back. We also took him to Trenton's game the other night...He just sat in my lap and slept.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
WE have offically added to our family......
Meet Max an 11 week old PUG. We went today to pick him up as a surprise for our kids, and I really believe now, it is more for me..lol. He is full of personality, and is precious. I know we have many challenging days ahead concerning crate training, but we will master it with patience and perseverance....which I know a little bit about.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Makes a mother proud!!!
I have to say yesterday was one of the greatest moments to witness thus far in my son, Trenton's, life. He was baptized last night in our evening service. I am proud of him because he made this decision on his own. I didn't even know he signed up to be baptized until a day later. We did see the announcement that the church was having a baptizing, and I did mention to him that if he was ready it was okay. I never said another word about it.
I believe, I can do so much for my children, but it stops at the cross. What I mean by this, is I cannot have salvation for him. I can lead him to the cross, pray for him, and be the example, but I cannot do it for him. Trenton has always been the type child that can understand "deep" things. He has always been the "little adult" in most areas of his life. Sometimes him knowing so much is NOT an asset.
I get a little nostalgic when these events happen. I can remember being married only a few short months, but my heart wanted a baby. I prayed, prayed, and prayed for a baby (Lloyd was not ready at all). I remember one day in prayer, the Lord spoke to me, He said "You are going to have a baby, it is going to be a boy, and he will be fine". I thought he meant that month, but boy was I surprised. It was 11 months later when I found out I was pregnant. I can remember the tears of joy that I had. I was the ripe old age of 20..lol. I had a lot of dreams, but not a lot of life experience. I can remember the day he was born, and really not knowing what to do with this crying child. I can remember the frustration and being overwhelmed at being a new mother.
Trenton has always been my child with a mind of his own. If I say black it is white to him. I think this quality can be good and bad. There is such a sweet side to him, he is very compassionate and thoughtful. The one thing lately that has really touched my heart, is that he has taken an interest in a little 4 year old boy who is being raised by his mother. His big sister is on my daughter's team, and Trenton has taken such an interest in being there for him. The other day I saw Trenton (10) giving this little guy a horsey back ride through the sand box, and it touched my heart to know that he would be interested in making sure that he was taken care of. A few days later, the little boy had a scrimmage game, and his mom came to our ballfield to have me look at what Trenton was doing. Trenton was out on the field with his little friend, during the game, showing him how to run the bases and catch the ball. His mom was very apologetic, and I was like NO, dont be. My heart bubbled with joy because my son knows what it means to be involved. It is the cutest thing to see, wherever Trenton is the little boy follows. Trenton told me that one of his friends asked him to take his little friend to his mother so they could play, and Trenton told him NO, that he has gotten him a snack, and he can sit right there with them. ( I hated in this paragraph using "little boy" because he is more than just a little boy, but for privacy reasons and the internet I used it as a generic term")
When we have our days, and Trenton likes to talk over me, and voice "his" opinion. He may do that and we may butt heads, but he is still a very precious and intelligent child that God has a huge plan for. I pray everyday for God to protect them, and take them to the place he would have them to GO.. Yay for my first born.
My little Sarah, is my 6 year old ray of sunshine. She has also been pure Joy since she was born. She knows what she wants and is settled into herself to go get it. She has a sweet spirit, but is very competitive. It is so funny to watch her on the ballfield. She gets mad at herself if she misses a ball, and if she strikes out you can see the frustration. We never have to say anything to her because she coaches herself. I have never seen a girl be so secure in herself,not over confident, but just comfortable in her own skin. I hope to the Lord she will be that way in puberty, but we will take this one day at a time. I am proud of her because she is on our expressive worship team at church, and is doing so well. She understands the importance of loving the Lord, and ministering for his glory.
My prayer is one of Thanksgiving to the Lord for allowing me to be a mother of 2 precious children. I no longer look to what I don't have, but to what I do
I believe, I can do so much for my children, but it stops at the cross. What I mean by this, is I cannot have salvation for him. I can lead him to the cross, pray for him, and be the example, but I cannot do it for him. Trenton has always been the type child that can understand "deep" things. He has always been the "little adult" in most areas of his life. Sometimes him knowing so much is NOT an asset.
I get a little nostalgic when these events happen. I can remember being married only a few short months, but my heart wanted a baby. I prayed, prayed, and prayed for a baby (Lloyd was not ready at all). I remember one day in prayer, the Lord spoke to me, He said "You are going to have a baby, it is going to be a boy, and he will be fine". I thought he meant that month, but boy was I surprised. It was 11 months later when I found out I was pregnant. I can remember the tears of joy that I had. I was the ripe old age of 20..lol. I had a lot of dreams, but not a lot of life experience. I can remember the day he was born, and really not knowing what to do with this crying child. I can remember the frustration and being overwhelmed at being a new mother.
Trenton has always been my child with a mind of his own. If I say black it is white to him. I think this quality can be good and bad. There is such a sweet side to him, he is very compassionate and thoughtful. The one thing lately that has really touched my heart, is that he has taken an interest in a little 4 year old boy who is being raised by his mother. His big sister is on my daughter's team, and Trenton has taken such an interest in being there for him. The other day I saw Trenton (10) giving this little guy a horsey back ride through the sand box, and it touched my heart to know that he would be interested in making sure that he was taken care of. A few days later, the little boy had a scrimmage game, and his mom came to our ballfield to have me look at what Trenton was doing. Trenton was out on the field with his little friend, during the game, showing him how to run the bases and catch the ball. His mom was very apologetic, and I was like NO, dont be. My heart bubbled with joy because my son knows what it means to be involved. It is the cutest thing to see, wherever Trenton is the little boy follows. Trenton told me that one of his friends asked him to take his little friend to his mother so they could play, and Trenton told him NO, that he has gotten him a snack, and he can sit right there with them. ( I hated in this paragraph using "little boy" because he is more than just a little boy, but for privacy reasons and the internet I used it as a generic term")
When we have our days, and Trenton likes to talk over me, and voice "his" opinion. He may do that and we may butt heads, but he is still a very precious and intelligent child that God has a huge plan for. I pray everyday for God to protect them, and take them to the place he would have them to GO.. Yay for my first born.
My little Sarah, is my 6 year old ray of sunshine. She has also been pure Joy since she was born. She knows what she wants and is settled into herself to go get it. She has a sweet spirit, but is very competitive. It is so funny to watch her on the ballfield. She gets mad at herself if she misses a ball, and if she strikes out you can see the frustration. We never have to say anything to her because she coaches herself. I have never seen a girl be so secure in herself,not over confident, but just comfortable in her own skin. I hope to the Lord she will be that way in puberty, but we will take this one day at a time. I am proud of her because she is on our expressive worship team at church, and is doing so well. She understands the importance of loving the Lord, and ministering for his glory.
My prayer is one of Thanksgiving to the Lord for allowing me to be a mother of 2 precious children. I no longer look to what I don't have, but to what I do
Saturday, April 10, 2010
So He develops me in the Dark???
I just Love how God works in his way. I have to say that I feel so blessed to be apart of our church. During Wednesday Bible Study our precious Pastor's wife taught on Elijah, the praying prophet. It was an awesome lesson. She was bringing out the point that Elijah did exactly what God told him..He made a proclamation to the King, that there would be no rain. After he was obedient, the Lord led him to solitude to be fed by the brook by a raven. After awhile, the brook dried up. You know, she really brought out that even when we are completely obedient, we can be led into times of darkness. What I mean, we are led through trials...and it is in these times that God develops us.
I have had a really heavy heart the past couple of days, and I hold onto these truths. I am doing it again, I am wearing my mask. If only people could see my heart, it is BROKEN. I miss my baby, and I want to hold him. I think about him everyday, and I want to know him. I know I can't change it, and I know all things happen for a reason. I just decided to take my mask off for awhile and be real. I think my triggers this time are, there are several people who were just a few weeks behind me in pregnancy...Well, they have had their babies...NO PROBLEMS...healthy precious gifts. I am not at all envious, but my heart aches for my baby, my son. I have made Selah's song "Unredeemed",my official song. I know God loves me, and he has me in his arms..He knows my pain, and will make all things new. I know this, but walking through the pain is necessary in this life. I am not stopping, just walking.
Lloyd and I are on the horizon of something wonderful at our church. New beginnings are around the corner...I will take what life has handed me, put it in my backpack, and continue marching on..marching on this journey of faith....What the enemy intended for evil...God will make good...it will be used for his glory...I hold to that...I place it inside my heart..to know I serve a faithful father is all I need to know. I have a Father that walks with me when I hide my tears, my tears of pain...I may wipe them away to hide, but he sees them all. He loves me with an unending love!!!! I am being developed, in the dark..:)
I have had a really heavy heart the past couple of days, and I hold onto these truths. I am doing it again, I am wearing my mask. If only people could see my heart, it is BROKEN. I miss my baby, and I want to hold him. I think about him everyday, and I want to know him. I know I can't change it, and I know all things happen for a reason. I just decided to take my mask off for awhile and be real. I think my triggers this time are, there are several people who were just a few weeks behind me in pregnancy...Well, they have had their babies...NO PROBLEMS...healthy precious gifts. I am not at all envious, but my heart aches for my baby, my son. I have made Selah's song "Unredeemed",my official song. I know God loves me, and he has me in his arms..He knows my pain, and will make all things new. I know this, but walking through the pain is necessary in this life. I am not stopping, just walking.
Lloyd and I are on the horizon of something wonderful at our church. New beginnings are around the corner...I will take what life has handed me, put it in my backpack, and continue marching on..marching on this journey of faith....What the enemy intended for evil...God will make good...it will be used for his glory...I hold to that...I place it inside my heart..to know I serve a faithful father is all I need to know. I have a Father that walks with me when I hide my tears, my tears of pain...I may wipe them away to hide, but he sees them all. He loves me with an unending love!!!! I am being developed, in the dark..:)
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