It has been a crazy crazy month with trying to get back into the routine of school, work, and sports. It has definitely been a roller coaster ride to say the least. Trenton started 5th grade, and Sarah started 2nd. Trenton has lots and lots of work to do. It is really a busy year for him, and he is trying to make straight A's. I am so proud of both of them, and could NOT ask for better kids. We have our moments, but God has truly truly blessed us.
As I look at Trenton, I see a young man evolving. A young man that has to remind his mother that HE can DO stuff on his own, and he has is on way of doing stuff. OOOPPSS!!! I am learning slowly to let him find out things on his own. (Nothing major, just little things that I try to control). God has us on a unique journey that I am not at liberty to share, but it is a faith walk. I am learning to surrender Trenton and Sarah to him. I have been led to read the book "The Power of a Praying Parent", and it has been pivitol in my life. God has taught me that I don't have to handle everything concerning my kids, but he is the great "I AM" and he can intervene in any situation. I am trusting that when Trenton has a hard time completing his assignments on a particular day that the Lord will help him complete them. We believe the Lord for his miraculous work, and we are seeing his hand in all of our life situations.
God has really been at work, and he has given me confirmation after confirmation. I know the enemy would want nothing more than to distract me. I was pondering on something the other day, and I felt this rise in my Spirit. FEAR is the mangifying glass of a little speckle of doubt. God is greater than anything, and if he speaks....It is done and completed. Why do I still have trouble accepting what God promises? I dont' doubt him or his word, but I think I wrestle with the whole idea of him doing something for me. I mean, He gave the ultimate gift of his son. I am learning to accept his gifts.
There have been many times lately where Lloyd and I have been in complete awe of his mercy, kindness, and favor. I have been in prayer, and saw a vision of a present being handed in my direction. It was the most beautifully wrapped present. The Lord spoke to me and said "Are you going to accept my gift". He was referring to a situation that he has been leading us to. All I know, is he is doing the driving. I am not(although, I do) to try to figure out how he is going to do it, he just is. I find myself, trying to rationalize his ways, and how I think he is going to work it out. I have to remind myself....HE IS GOD!!!! and all he has to do is speak....Isn't that what he did with the world?...HE spoke it into existence. So I am learning not to put God on a human level, and the things he does are things that I won't be able to fathom. Okay, so I am learning to just say....You said, YOu will do it...and leave it at that. I can no longer step into the world of figuring it out and wonder how and when. LOL...So I am learning, Lord, I am learning. I have taken great strides in trusting him. I use to worry, fret, and try to do it all on my own. I tried to figure out a way. When the "I want to figure this out" tries to enter my mind, I discount it, and just hand it over to the Lord....It is such a daily and sometimes hourly thing. I don't want control over my life...I want him to have it. I just have to continually submit my will to the LORD, and that is not always an easy task..
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