Monday, November 22, 2010

Master of Distraction!!!

Life has been extra busy lately!! Just so much on my plate...so much to think about...so many decisions to make...kids...kid's sports...church...working full time...housework....husband...pug....Sometimes I feel like I am in a complete whirlwind. I think, at times, when it get likes this we completely lose touch with who we are and who we are suppose to be.

By this, I mean, we lose our complete purpose of being on this earth. Our complete purpose is to bring Glory to God, and to be his hands and voices extended. The Lord began to show me over the last week, just how the enemy works against us. I have been heavily involved with making the right decision for Trenton regarding middle school. I have really spent a lot of time in prayer seeking the Lord regarding this. I know he is beginning one of many major life transitions, and it cannot be taken lightly. The Lord has given me answers and promises during my prayer time, and has assured me that his way is right and I am to follow as he leads. Okay. The Lord spoke it, it is a done deal...YES!!...not so easy. It has been a real faith battle...I mean I live in the flesh, and everything he has spoken has been in the Spirit realm. I believe everything he says..I mean everything. It doesn't make the fighting the flesh any easier.

This is what the Lord has shown me.....He never changes, His word never changes, His promises never changes, He is and always will be truth...Nothing changes that. So if God never changes, what changes?? US!!!!!! The enemy does not want us to obtain anything the Lord has for us in our lives because if we did, the Lord would get all of the glory, and therefore would change hearts and lives of the people around us!! His tactics are to keep us so tied in knots that we cannot see past our own face. He keeps us so inward focused that we have no time to see past our own situations. I mean, the situations that have already been tagged, A Promise. So if God promises us something, then the right thing to do would be to accept it...and move on. Easy? Nope. If we are not careful we let the little weapon the enemy calls doubt creep in. In such a subtle way we try to figure out how God will do it, When, Where, What, etc. So in the midst of the doubt, there are many missed opportunities to minister outside of ourselves. He keeps us toiling and wondering. Hey! If God promises something, he is always good on his word. The very one who created truth, spoke it. WOW! I am so glad the Lord loves me enough to call me on my flaws, and is loving enough to teach me. Why?

You see, here is the whole situation. I work in a school setting, and I will admit I have spent many days full of anxiety and worry about my children's future. What God began to show me is he has promises for them that he has revealed to me, yet I was still toiling. That was the tactic of the enemy. If he kept me busy worrying about my own life, then I was letting the opportunities pass me by to be Christ to the world that I work in. I mean, opportunities to minister to children who have no one to encourage them, tell them they are worth something, to help them through tragedies of life, to pat them on the back and smile, to meet whatever need they have at that moment, as the Lord leads. SOOO I have determined in myself to push the promises of God, for my own family, into a place in my heart called...ACCEPTANCE...taking God at his word, and counting it DONE. Kind of like a folder in a filing cabinet...Just waiting on the date to arrive to put it in the DONE box, after it manifests physically.

It has been such a freeing experience. I am not going to sit here and say it is going to easy, but I am glad the Lord revealed to me what was truly going on. It is up to me to keep the filing cabinet closed, and my heart open to others around me. God is a God of his word, and he will not lie.



Numbers 23:19

God is not a man, that he should lie,

Nor a son of man, that he should repent,

Has he said, will he not do?

Or has he spoken, and will not make it good?



Pretty much sums it up...God is NOT a man, so he doesn't lie...Lying is not in him....He is not a son of man...he doesn't need to repent...So if he speaks it, he will do it...and if he has spoken...he will make good on it!!! He is Good!! He is Truth!! Therefore, he doesn't waver from his word or his character!! Yay!!! So glad he loves me so!!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Catch up time!!

Gosh, I can't believe it has been almost 2 months since I posted. I have had so much going on lately. It has definitely been a transition year, for sure. Trenton is in 5th grade, and Sarah is in 2nd. Trenton has had to really push himself this year, and well, I have been behind him pushing..lol. I have seen a glimpse of the "tween" years, and it is very "nice". I cannot believe he will be in middle school next year. I look at his face, and see that little round faced toddler who absolutely adored his Mommy. I hate it because as he gets older, I have to make sure he is going in the right direction. In that process, he becomes frustrated because he feels I don't understand him or I am against him. (Yes, this starts as early as 10). He is like an old man, trapped in a 10 year old's body. He understands and grasps so much, but doesn't quite know how to implement it. He has so much potential, and as his mother, I see so much. I have been assigned by the Lord to be the vehicle to drive him to his destiny. I can't do it for him, but my assignment is to do everything I can to equip him. I think, on somedays, it is much easier to slack. When I am sitting at the table for hours making sure his homework is done with "excellence", and not half-way, and I become weary at his lack of interest, it is at those times....I wonder, is this really going to pay off? I don't know why I second guess myself, or the Lord for that matter. If he has given me a mission, then he will equip me to complete it. The Lord is so faithful, and I know now why the Lord has given us kids. They are the instrument the Lord uses to drive us to our knees. Sarah is our 7 year old, and she is in 2nd grade. She is still in the innocent years, and I am enjoying it while it lasts. I pray for her daily that she will be used mightily for the Lord, as I do for Trenton.
I spent many years wondering what great "call" does the Lord have for me....Well, I may not be great at anything, but I do know that I will be the mother of Trenton and Sarah.