The "it" I am implying is MOTHERHOOD. As I held my 10 year old son and 7 year old daughter last night after a rough day, it humbles me...that God would entrust me to be their mother. It was easier when they were infants. Now with my 10 year old, I am dealing with the outside influences of others. It is more of a conflict at times with him now that he is older. He can spend a whole day at daycare or school, and come home with a personality of someone else. We spent a long time last night praying with him and reading with him the word of God. It was a wake up call to us as parents that we cannot even slumber for a minute, but we must be vigilant at all times and aware of all the schemes of the enemy. He would want nothing more than to destroy the plan of God, and the promises he has for my children. I, as a parent, will NOT back down. I will stand in the strength of the Holy Spirit, and declare his schemes DEAD. My children will be the Lord's, and they will carry out his purposes. The enemy just woke a sleeping giant, and that is a MOTHER with a purpose. The Lord has given Lloyd and I these children, and if we have to lay over them every moment of every day to cover them in prayer, we will!! OUR God will protect them, and lead them into what he has for them. I proclaim..LOVE, STRENGTH, BLESSING, PROTECTION, AND PURPOSE over their lives!!! They were entrusted unto us as parents, and we GIVE them right back to the LORD!!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Many adopted children!!!
Wow, has our life changed over the last year...Lloyd and I have just became the College and Young Adult ministers at our church. It is such a priviledge and honor to be in the service for the Lord. It has finally manifested itself...finally after 10 years of preparation, prayer, and growing up!!! I am humbled at God's majesty, grace, and love. His patience with me is hard to fathom. If I were my heavenly Father, I would have grown tired....lol.
I look at the task at hand to lead this great bunch of Young Adults, and it can be overwhelming. It would be easy to just march in there, teach a little, then leave. That would accomplish nothing. My prayer to the Lord, is to set this generation ablaze for him. I don't want them to be the statistic, but the overcomers of this generation. I hope that I will not fail as a leader, but will inspire them. I know that it can only be done when I put my hand in the Lord's, and I walk with him. It is exciting and then it is overwhelming at the same time. God is faithful and what we put in we will get out. The same applies to life. If we are faithful in the little things, God will trust and add to us, but who much is given, much is required. My goal is not numbers, but depth. I know as God begins to move, it will be an obvious thing to grow, but it will be by him and in his time.
It isn't about a title or status, but is about the souls involved. It isn't a name to carry, but a burden to bear. It is made up of seasons and loaded with adventure, but most of all it is about the one who sent us...Our Lord Jesus Christ. May my motives be pure and acceptable before him, as I accept the assignment......as minister/pastor/mentor/friend.....X-pansion 4:10...here we come...with the Lord by our side..
I look at the task at hand to lead this great bunch of Young Adults, and it can be overwhelming. It would be easy to just march in there, teach a little, then leave. That would accomplish nothing. My prayer to the Lord, is to set this generation ablaze for him. I don't want them to be the statistic, but the overcomers of this generation. I hope that I will not fail as a leader, but will inspire them. I know that it can only be done when I put my hand in the Lord's, and I walk with him. It is exciting and then it is overwhelming at the same time. God is faithful and what we put in we will get out. The same applies to life. If we are faithful in the little things, God will trust and add to us, but who much is given, much is required. My goal is not numbers, but depth. I know as God begins to move, it will be an obvious thing to grow, but it will be by him and in his time.
It isn't about a title or status, but is about the souls involved. It isn't a name to carry, but a burden to bear. It is made up of seasons and loaded with adventure, but most of all it is about the one who sent us...Our Lord Jesus Christ. May my motives be pure and acceptable before him, as I accept the assignment......as minister/pastor/mentor/friend.....X-pansion 4:10...here we come...with the Lord by our side..
Saturday, July 3, 2010
OH my it has been awhile..but God has been at work.
I have been a bad blogger since summer began. Life has been busy busy busy. I have enjoyed every minute of it. Trenton has been to 3 camps thus far. He has been to baseball camp, basketball camp, and then Youth camp. Sarah decided she is waiting until next year to do the camp thing. I sit and look at where I was a year ago, and count every one of my blessings. A year ago this weekend I was newly pregnant with our sweet boy we lost. I could not lift my head, and if I did I was throwing up. It was such a miserable feeling to not be well. I remember feeling so helpless.
I have taken this summer and decided to create an atomosphere of joy. I have decided to do things and enjoy life with the children we do have. We have enjoyed $1.00 movie Tuesdays. It is wonderful to look on each side of me and marvel at how blessed I truly am. I can get a good look when they are all into a movie. I am so blessed beyond measure, and I will not live entrapped thinking about what I don't have. I will rejoice and be thankful for what I do.
I did host a sleepover for Sarah with all of her softball team. It was a challenge, but well worth the memories. I want my children to remember the things I did for them, not for merit, but that I did love them and would sacrifice. I want them to know that we have an open door policy, and that it is a house of love and acceptance.
We have had a little bit of sibling rivalry this summer, and I have been prayerful about how to handle this. Lloyd and I have decided to teach our children to be servants. They are siblings that should love one another and care about each others interests. I have decided to give them scripture to look up each time they are ugly to one another that correlates with the incident. There is tension in the air at times around the Gibson Household. We had an incident earlier where Sarah called Trenton a name, and in return Trenton called her a name. They spent 10 min in the corner, and I found Proverbs 15:1....A gentle answer deflects anger, but harsh words make tempers flare. They read it to one another, and then apologized. Trenton then said, It still hurts that she called me that...we then looked up in Matthew, where if we want forgiveness, we must forgive others. I had him quote it, and tell her he forgives her. It isn't easy, but we knew something needs to be done. The word of God cannot be refuted, and it is sharper than any two edged sword. The enemy would want nothing more than to destroy our unity. Well, he cannot stand against the truth of the word. No longer being passive Christians, but warriors against discord. We are no longer going to be family easily defeated, but one that will stand!!!!
I have taken this summer and decided to create an atomosphere of joy. I have decided to do things and enjoy life with the children we do have. We have enjoyed $1.00 movie Tuesdays. It is wonderful to look on each side of me and marvel at how blessed I truly am. I can get a good look when they are all into a movie. I am so blessed beyond measure, and I will not live entrapped thinking about what I don't have. I will rejoice and be thankful for what I do.
I did host a sleepover for Sarah with all of her softball team. It was a challenge, but well worth the memories. I want my children to remember the things I did for them, not for merit, but that I did love them and would sacrifice. I want them to know that we have an open door policy, and that it is a house of love and acceptance.
We have had a little bit of sibling rivalry this summer, and I have been prayerful about how to handle this. Lloyd and I have decided to teach our children to be servants. They are siblings that should love one another and care about each others interests. I have decided to give them scripture to look up each time they are ugly to one another that correlates with the incident. There is tension in the air at times around the Gibson Household. We had an incident earlier where Sarah called Trenton a name, and in return Trenton called her a name. They spent 10 min in the corner, and I found Proverbs 15:1....A gentle answer deflects anger, but harsh words make tempers flare. They read it to one another, and then apologized. Trenton then said, It still hurts that she called me that...we then looked up in Matthew, where if we want forgiveness, we must forgive others. I had him quote it, and tell her he forgives her. It isn't easy, but we knew something needs to be done. The word of God cannot be refuted, and it is sharper than any two edged sword. The enemy would want nothing more than to destroy our unity. Well, he cannot stand against the truth of the word. No longer being passive Christians, but warriors against discord. We are no longer going to be family easily defeated, but one that will stand!!!!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Where have I been, you ask???
I have been in complete summertime bliss...I love it, I love it, I love it!!! I guess I celebrate this summer a little more because I spent 3/4 of last summer in the bed. A nauseated, very sick mess. I was just finding out I was pregnant this time last year, and then the downturn began.
I have really learned to take hold of what is in front of me, cherish it and celebrate it.
I wanted to be able to create Joy and memories this summer that would overshadow the sadness of last year. I have made it a point to not take for granted what I do have....God is perfect and Holy, and even though I had a sea in front of me....God has made a way...I may have scars, but the wound is closed and healing.
I have really learned to take hold of what is in front of me, cherish it and celebrate it.
I wanted to be able to create Joy and memories this summer that would overshadow the sadness of last year. I have made it a point to not take for granted what I do have....God is perfect and Holy, and even though I had a sea in front of me....God has made a way...I may have scars, but the wound is closed and healing.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
A Mish Mosh of Everything!!!
Well, we have had our little Max for a week and 2 days, and he is so smart. We are making progress in our house training, but it takes the patience of JOB to get this done. We are crate training, and at night he has decided he would rather sleep than whine. BIG accomplishment. I can't wait for the day when he is trained so we can enjoy him without worrying if he is sniffing to sniff or sniffing to use the bathroom. We have to put him in his crate when we are unable to give him one on one attention, and I want him to have free roam, but he has to earn it.
Life is going well in the Gibson Household. We are busy busy busy though. Trenton continues in baseball, and is doing okay. He has struggled a little bit through this season. He is in a definate slump, and I am praying the Lord gives him strength to endure it. I don't want him to lose heart in the midst of adversity because he loves the game. Sarah is doing good through her first season of ever playing softball. I have made some really neat friends through this season, for which I am thankful. I look at my life and I am so very thankful for God's amazing grace, and I do not take it for granted.
I look at where I was 6 months ago, and I have come full circle. Is my life the way I imagined it would be? In some circumstances, NO. I had always imagined I would have 3 kids and that was the end of it. I am seeing a new place in my life. I am content with life as it is right now....A little crazy, but I am content. I am learning to use up every spare minute I have to be productive. We are going to be the Gibson 4, plus a dog...lol. I am truly truly okay with that. I am able to pour into the 2 that I have. The Lord really dealt with me about how I was perceiving things. He laid it on my heart to be joyous in what I have and not seek what was dead. Dead, meaning....a dream that I had from within myself, but God has given a definite NO!!! It is not meant for us to have more children, I truly believe that. Am I feeling that way out of fear? NOPE, I just know that I am to obey the Lord's commands. It takes sacrifice, and if this is what I have to sacrifice unto the LORD, then I am giving it all to him.
Things are moving rather swiftly in my spiritual life. The Lord is absolutely removing every crutch that I have depended on, and it is pruning time. Although, it hurts, I am willing to go through it. I want my fruit to be ripe before the LORD. I want to bear ripe, righteous fruit. I want to be a sweet smelling savor in the nostrils of my heavenly Father. My hand is in his, and I am walking and following after his every command. I trust him more now than I ever have, and I will continue to do so. I look forward to the doors that are soon to be open for Lloyd and I. I know I must be obedient in order to achieve what he has for us.....Painful at times, but necessary.
Life is going well in the Gibson Household. We are busy busy busy though. Trenton continues in baseball, and is doing okay. He has struggled a little bit through this season. He is in a definate slump, and I am praying the Lord gives him strength to endure it. I don't want him to lose heart in the midst of adversity because he loves the game. Sarah is doing good through her first season of ever playing softball. I have made some really neat friends through this season, for which I am thankful. I look at my life and I am so very thankful for God's amazing grace, and I do not take it for granted.
I look at where I was 6 months ago, and I have come full circle. Is my life the way I imagined it would be? In some circumstances, NO. I had always imagined I would have 3 kids and that was the end of it. I am seeing a new place in my life. I am content with life as it is right now....A little crazy, but I am content. I am learning to use up every spare minute I have to be productive. We are going to be the Gibson 4, plus a dog...lol. I am truly truly okay with that. I am able to pour into the 2 that I have. The Lord really dealt with me about how I was perceiving things. He laid it on my heart to be joyous in what I have and not seek what was dead. Dead, meaning....a dream that I had from within myself, but God has given a definite NO!!! It is not meant for us to have more children, I truly believe that. Am I feeling that way out of fear? NOPE, I just know that I am to obey the Lord's commands. It takes sacrifice, and if this is what I have to sacrifice unto the LORD, then I am giving it all to him.
Things are moving rather swiftly in my spiritual life. The Lord is absolutely removing every crutch that I have depended on, and it is pruning time. Although, it hurts, I am willing to go through it. I want my fruit to be ripe before the LORD. I want to bear ripe, righteous fruit. I want to be a sweet smelling savor in the nostrils of my heavenly Father. My hand is in his, and I am walking and following after his every command. I trust him more now than I ever have, and I will continue to do so. I look forward to the doors that are soon to be open for Lloyd and I. I know I must be obedient in order to achieve what he has for us.....Painful at times, but necessary.
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