Saturday, March 28, 2009

The road to surrender

I chose this title because in our walk with the Lord, it is a journey along the way to surrender who we are, and to become one with Christ. It is not an instant process, but a very long tedious self sacrificing journey. I received the confirmed call of God on my life in March of 2001. Looking back I can see God's complete hand throughout my life leading up to the call.

I am currently in the Ministerial Internship Program with the Church of God, and will graduate in May. I take my Ordination exam in September, and that will be the highest level achievable by a woman in the Church of God. My husband is completely supportive. I have never forgot my role as a wife and mother throughout this journey. I am first and foremost a wife and mother to my family. We have just had confirmation on the exact direction we are to go in ministry, and it is the path of Youth Pastors. I have just finished typing my resume and cover letter today, and will be sending it to the State Youth directors of Tennessee and Georgia. We will see what happens. I just know in my spirit that God has a specific church for us, and it is so exciting to know he has a complete plan.

I am, however, a little apprehensive about the whole "unknown". I have questions.. What if we have to move? What if we have to uproot everything? On the other hand, when you accept the call of the Lord, self dies. We will see. Our commissioning ceremony is in May, and we will be sent forth. The Lord spoke to me last year, and said "Life as you now know it will not be the same". You can't get any plainer than that. I love the Lord with all of my heart, and I want to see young people's lives changed. It is about the harvest, not ourselves. That is the true meaning of ministry...